Well, today is the day I joined Nokia exactly a year ago; and I am confused. What should I be feeling now? Should I be happy as this is what I am meant to do? Be a part of the corporate rat race, slowly crawl my way up to the top, or somewhere atleast where the good cheese is? Or is it one step away from where the heart really lies? The bigger question is when is it too late to decide? When do you become so comfortable with your life, that you cant just let go? You just don't have the guts to start over again..
Let me bring up a concept what my geeky comic book friend once told me: "hypertime". Reality is like a river - with infinite tributaries. Most of the time, these alternate timelines go off on their own and never intersect with the main timeline. On occasion, the branches return, feeding back into the main timeline - sometimes permanently, sometimes temporarily. Each decision you take is like a fork in the path - shifting you back and forth among alternate realities - what could have been. The main river is the universe's preferred path for you. So when you stray, it conspires to bring you back.
One year seems to be a fork in the path - the day to re-live the promises you made to yourself someday when you were a kid.
Try as I may, I am the kid on the dive board. Looking down from the top, and scared like hell, hoping someone would push from behind - waiting for the sign, waiting for the push. Man might write his own destiny, but for people like me, I look up to the North Star in the sky to show the way.
